In the summer of my twelfth year I was “baby-sitting” the neighbor boys. They weren’t babies but they were younger, brothers and if left to their own devices may have off’d each other.
Some days watching them it was easy we climbed on round hay bales, played Super Nintendo – Mario Kart and other days they they were taking a timeout in their room only to jump out the windows in the middle of winter without shoes or a coat on. I made them get back into the house the same way they went out. I guess I should consider myself lucky they didn’t get frost bitten.
During one particular summer night they were indulging in a crate of blueberries. They offered me some and I declined. I told them I didn’t like blueberries. They challenged me asking, “have you ever even HAD blueberries?”
I didn’t realize until that moment that I HADN’T ever had a blueberry. Then I wondered WHY?
It took some time to realize that my MOM was the one that didn’t like blueberries and as our grocery getter since she didn’t like them she didn’t buy them.
That summer has always been a green eggs and ham moment for me.
What other ideals, foods, circumstances did she project so much that I believed them true for me?
I’m sure I haven’t uncovered all of them but I know this to be true.
- I like blueberries.
- I like PB&J (she only likes EITHER peanut butter OR jelly sandwiches but not them together).
- I like makeup.
- I like traveling.
- I like NOT being in a hurry.
Now, if I picked up on so much of my mom’s projections what other things have I absorbed from others?
The jury is still out. I’ve uncovered something’s but I know there is more.
Are you like me? Have you absorbed habits, behaviors, traits, ideas, tastes that could potentially be untrue for you?
Try the blueberries.
Try the green eggs and ham.
Question the things you think you know to be true and really find out if they are.
Namaste,
Jes xoxo