Last month I was invited on a tea date in our dinning room with my oldest. I love that kind of date and it happens often but not as often as I’d like.
The two of us talk about what’s going on in our life, struggles we have and things that are turning out to be really incredible. It’s nice to press pause on any day and chat over tea.
During one of our dates I looked into Bash’s blue eyes and told him, “man, I really love you”.
“I know, but I love you more, “ he told me.
I explained to him it wasn’t possible for him to love me as much as I loved him.
HIs response caught me by surprise. He told me that of course he can love me more than I can love him because he’s never been hurt, he’s only ever known love.
Wow. He’s got a point.
Once you have been hurt, are there some subconscious walls built up and the walls harden and get taller with each break? I know that I don’t love to my full capacity out of fear of being completely shattered. I would ask my wise son if you could have the walls up on some relationships but not on others and he told me, no. In his words, “barriers are barriers, once they are up you have to work hard to remove them.”
Since he’s told me this theory, I can’t help but think that he’s right. Especially when I came across this quote.
I’d love to hear your thoughts on this! Much love, Jes xoxo