Dedicating

My Grandma is the fittest most active person I have ever known.  Before her knee was bad she would walk 10 miles a day.  When her knee issues started she didn’t stop, she switched it up!  She moved on to a pedal bike and would bike 10 miles a day and lift weights.

She is unstoppable.

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More often than not, I talk myself out of just about anything.

When I say anything, I mean A.N.Y.T.H.I.N.G.

Workouts.

Work-ins.

Walks.

Eating Clean.

Hanging out.

I mean the list is long and I hardly feel bad about it.

The interesting part about all of it is, it takes me longer to talk myself out of a workout than it ever would to do the damn thing in the first place.  You may ask yourself, like I have over the years, why waste the time talking yourself out of anything?

In the long run most of the things you’re trying to talk yourself out of are for YOUR benefit.  The workout, the work-in, the walk, the chatting with friends, eating clean all of it serves a purpose in your life.  If you continually talk yourself out of things that are good for you, you run the risk of letting that negative voice become overbearing.

The negative voice gains momentum when you stop showing up for yourself.  It really gains traction if you continually don’t show up.

Be a priority in your own life.

Show up for yourself.

Be well so you can be your best self around others that might need you too.

But if, IF you find it absolutely difficult to show up for yourself and to do caring things for yourself, then you MUST dedicate your workout or your meditation work-in to someone.

My Grandma’s knee is really bad these days.  Her movement is very limited and I know it’s such a bother for her to be still.  Weight has always been her arch nemisis and it has seemed to be winning in the age battle.  In all honesty, this last trip to Michigan was difficult.  In previous years she has always tagged along with us in our adventures but this year she didn’t leave the house.

Since I’ve been home and going through something I can’t really put words to, I have been letting the negative voice control me and I have been letting darkness in where light once inhibited.

As I struggle to get my head in the clear positive world I once enjoyed daily, I also struggle to do things that my body needs.

While I was sitting in meditation the other day two things occurred to me.

1. DO THE WORK.

2. DEDICATE YOUR WORK IF YOU CANT DO IT FOR YOURSELF.

I know in my heart that my grandma would love to be moving at her fullest capacity.  I also know that she needs the rest.  That’s exactly where I can come in.  I can do the work in her name, the positive vibes will be sent to her and we will both benefit.

I love the quote at the top.  And lately I have been feeling helpless, so I will be helping someone else in the form of dedication.

Care to join me?

Namaste,

Jes xoxo